If you're wondering why I haven't been blogging much lately... well, part of it is that I felt the increasing need to censor myself. "Oh, people won't want to read about that," or "You can't write that; it'll piss some people off" and such. But then I thought about it - I was never really into self-censoring, and I don't know why lately I've felt the need for it. Maybe because the blog world has gotten so much larger, reaching a larger audience, that I feel like there are more possibilities to unintentionally offend someone. Maybe it's because I'm afraid that any potential employers might discover my blog (even though I've never mentioned my last name). Maybe it's because if I bitch about the current administration (govt) too much, I'll be labeled an "enemy combatant" and thrown in jail indefinitely (they don't need proof or even charges - they can just hold you for as long as they deem necessary). Maybe it's because, well... because my life is boring, and I don't want to bore anybody. Or, maybe it's a combination of all of those things.
Either way, I'm trying to blog more, just because I think I need to express myself more. Not having a job for so long, it's really taken a toll on my interpersonal skills. I've never really been good at talking with people, and it's only gotten worse lately. Now, I know that nothing can replace face-to-face interactions, but at least I can get some practice talking and forming coherent sentences on here.
So, that's where I am right now.
That said, please, don't read any further if you have delicate sensibilities...
Please excuse the frank talk; this subject matter doesn't really lend itself to polite conversations, no matter how delicate you try to be.
OK, so you know what I hate? I hate when you're taking a shit, and it's almost all the way out, and then your sphincter snaps shut prematurely. Because you know that whatever's left to go won't go easily. You know that you'll be stuck there for at least another few minutes. Seriously. Do you know what I'm talking about? Because then you've got to make a decision - did you get enough out that you can just "add it to the next load," or do you stay there and finish the job. Either way, you lose. If you take the first option, you've got to deal with a little discomfort for a while, because that puppy still wants to get out and join its friends, so you can't stray too far from the bathroom, in case it makes a break for it. If you take the second option, well... you're stuck for a little while as your ass relaxes enough so that you can attempt another purge. And sometimes, that takes a LONG time. It's a bit frustrating.
Anyway.
So, how is your day going? Me, I'm heading out to a job fair. Wish me luck!
(Oh, and BTW, in case you're wondering, everything came out OK, so that won't be an issue at the job fair)
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Laughed out loud at this. All you have to do is put a disclaimer about delicate sensibilities in the post and of course I'm going to keep reading.
Posted by
DCup on 06/16 at 03:15 PM
You are like the original ShitBlogger.
I miss you, and your uncensored self. Stick around, would ya?
P.S. I know your last name. Muwahahaha.
Posted by
Laura on 06/16 at 04:22 PM
I hope the job fair went well, glad the puppies are all together now.
Posted by
sophie on 06/16 at 04:54 PM
Oh I've missed you Mikey! And I totally know of which you speak. Sometimes I've been in the first category, sometimes the second. But you're right, either way poses its own problems.
"Never trust a fart"-Jack Nicholson "The Bucket List"
I've been doing the same thing with self-censoring which is total bullshit. If you don't like what I have to say, go elsewhere. The 'net is plenty big enough for the two of us.
Posted by
Manic Witch on 06/16 at 06:27 PM
I've been reading you for so long that I certainly have noticed the change in tone. Not saying this is good or bad, just different. It's understandable, our writing and use of the web space will change as our lives change. I think, though, that it's important to let the words flow in whatever way makes you comfortable.
As to the bathroom experience, hmm, not sure if I can relate but I won't be forgetting this any time soon. hee :D
Posted by
patricia on 06/16 at 07:34 PM
I can honestly say that as long as I have been reading here, you have offended me very little. Honestly, the times you did I chalked it up to me being to sensitive and came back the next day anyway. I have always gotten the feeling that if I called you out on something you would listen, you may still not agree, but that says a lot about you anyway. Opinions are like assholes.....which brings me to the next part. I have to read or play on the DS for just that reason. If I contemplate my shit I end up getting weirded out and constipated.
Posted by on 06/16 at 09:44 PM
Wooo, glad to see that you're making a return to blogging! Yea, enough with the censoring, just say what you gotta say--it's just not the same without your posts!
Oh and I know your last name too, mwahahaha!
Posted by
Jen on 06/16 at 10:47 PM
"You know that you'll be stuck there for at least another few minutes." - DUDE, seriously... you're a guy!
Like it is really being "stuck" - you know you are happy to be there. That is "Mikey" time. You enjoy every minute of it. If you had a TV in there with you, you would never come out.
Posted by
soapbox.SUPERSTAR on 06/17 at 07:51 AM
It needs to cling to the larger poop that's already out, so that the last bit gets pulled right out of you. You have to learn to keep the sphincter relaxed until the whole shebang is out. Not that I've mastered that skill yet either, but that's what you've gotta do. It's like Zen Shitting.
Posted by
Deltus on 06/17 at 10:53 AM
Good luck! I spent some long, frustrating months unemployed last year, so I know how much that sucks.
Posted by
Melissa on 06/17 at 12:17 PM
Hi Mikey! Long time no leaving a comment on yer blog! It's Lori - formally Downtown Chick Chat.
I'm sorry to hear about your employment situation. I too have been laid off from my corporate position AGAIN and this time for many months. So...... I TOTALLY feel your pain.
I also hear ya about what to blog and not blog. But I say go for it! Even though you and I are on some differences of opinion on some political issues... I love ya and love reading your blog. In fact, I miss reading your blog.
I just started blogging again after an absence and have a new home.
http://desertmartini.wordpress.com/ so feel free to update the blogroll dude. Oh and you'll have to check out my pictures from the 80's and get a good chuckle. Oh those golden 80's. So boss.
Posted by
Lori on 06/18 at 08:52 PM
I've missed you! I don't care if you are writing about politics or taking a dump, just write more often.
Posted by
Michele on 06/20 at 04:16 AM